I have had a revelation! Chemotherapy is like childbirth. You have a memory of it, but it is not a reliable memory! It is a faulty memory, the really bad parts slip away, so that you are able to go through it again, willingly!
It has taken me four treatments to finally remember how the effects chemotherapy become cumulative over time. And now I remember!
My body staged a coup and it has won.
After big red puffy face disappeared and the effects of the dec wore off, I sank helplessly, miserably into the world of fatigue, bone/muscle pain, headache, dizziness and a lingering nausea. I really need to be living in a cave during this time. I am not fit for interaction with other human beings.
As any good cave dweller knows, it is best to stay away and not come out into the light until you can at least tolerate the light and all that comes with it, you know, like human interaction!
It is Wednesday, a week after treatment, I feel somewhat better, but not great. Peripheral Neuropathy increasing and then subsiding, all the while very painful to cope with. I have not been able to ride my bike, even around the neighborhood. I have been too unsteady for the balance required to ride.
Yesterday afternoon, I took Martha for a walk. Walking is harder than riding a bike. It seems to take more energy and I don't have it..right now, anyway. This too, shall pass!
We will see what today brings! Better things, I hope!
That's a really cute picture of you and Martha - love the cool shades! You look a lot more lively than in the previous "dec'ed out" one! Feel better!!!!
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